I hit the lowest point of my life just over 3 years ago. I had broken off an engagement to a nasty manipulative woman, I was traveling and I had just met a new girl. I thought I was on top of the world.
Then a car pulled in front of me of me and I swerved to not kill her or myself. I jumped the median and thought I was fine until my right leg and lower back went numb. Less than an hour later a doctor friend showed me a picture and told me that if I sit up I will not walk again. I was put in a helicopter and flown to a trauma center for emergency surgery to decompress my spinal cord and reconstruct / fuse my spine. 16 days of pretty much complete isolation (thanks Covid) in a hospital. During this time, 2 months into my new relationship we found she was pregnant and was having a miscarriage. I was however severely depressed, feeling like I had no way out and wanting to just off myself.
My new girl stuck by my side, was a positive reinforcement of everything good in my life and just a non judgemental sounding board. She just reiterated that I was able to walk again, I was not pissing and shitting in bag and I could feel part of my leg.
It took time, it took a lot ot self reflection and a ton of support but I was able to get my head up, put a step forward, look at the positives and not the negatives. Today we have a 1 year old menace of a son, a relationship that continues to grow and I have a new outlook on life.
I say this because true rock bottom only allows for an upward trajectory.
Prayer
Positive relationships
Find your joy.
Then a car pulled in front of me of me and I swerved to not kill her or myself. I jumped the median and thought I was fine until my right leg and lower back went numb. Less than an hour later a doctor friend showed me a picture and told me that if I sit up I will not walk again. I was put in a helicopter and flown to a trauma center for emergency surgery to decompress my spinal cord and reconstruct / fuse my spine. 16 days of pretty much complete isolation (thanks Covid) in a hospital. During this time, 2 months into my new relationship we found she was pregnant and was having a miscarriage. I was however severely depressed, feeling like I had no way out and wanting to just off myself.
My new girl stuck by my side, was a positive reinforcement of everything good in my life and just a non judgemental sounding board. She just reiterated that I was able to walk again, I was not pissing and shitting in bag and I could feel part of my leg.
It took time, it took a lot ot self reflection and a ton of support but I was able to get my head up, put a step forward, look at the positives and not the negatives. Today we have a 1 year old menace of a son, a relationship that continues to grow and I have a new outlook on life.
I say this because true rock bottom only allows for an upward trajectory.
Prayer
Positive relationships
Find your joy.
