Glad you have it all figured out. Glass houses
chris
Questions brother. What are you drinking and when/why? If you figure that out, it will likely be easier to taper off to a more reasonable amount, or stop completely. But only if you want to.
I ask as someone who has certainly had an issue with overindulgence for most of my adult life. I used to drink like a fish. Easily a 12 pack a day. Then I got out of the Marines but was still good for a 6 pack+ every night. For years.
For me, beer had become a part of my routine. My daily routine consisted of coming home, smacking a couple beers around, cooking dinner, drinking a couple more, eating dinner, drinking a couple more. Etc. I have always been the guy in the friend group to be able to count on having a beer in his hand or being able to drink more than everyone else and still be “fine”.
Over time I had completely made alcohol a part of my daily routine and life. When I started getting more health and fitness minded (always been a gym rat, but treated my body like garbage) the thought of NOT drinking every night seemed literally impossible. The thought of stopping literally gave me anxiety “how would I get by?”.
It’s sad to say that. It really is. For me, I identified that it had become a (negative) part of my life and coping mechanism. I “needed” it to complete my day. I felt like I had earned it. For me the hardest part was breaking the routine. Instead of beer I started drinking flavored seltzer water every time I wanted a beer. It sucked. I longed for the feeling of that cold beer in my empty stomach and the slow creeping feeling of it taking effect.
The first week was hard. All I could think about was a 6-er of coors lite. The second week was just as difficult. Over time it has gotten easier and easier. Sure I would drink a corona at a restaurant (that was allowed per the rules I made myself) or even at the house for a holiday, or a party, or something. But aside from that, I have not bought beer to drink just to drink it in 6 months or so. I was a month or so clean completely before the holidays, where I did drink a few (again, within the “rules”). But have been back to “clean and sober” since.
If you have any interest in quitting, or drastically slowing down, finding the “why” was really helpful for me.