in one post you totally contradict yourself....you state you use logic and critical thinking and then in your very next post you are arguing form a pure emotional non-logical stand point.
Listen, I am sorry you have had pain in your life, but guess what, we all have. No one knows the pain of being human better than Jesus. His life was all about the suffering humans can endure, from the emotional side all the way to the physical side. Jesus showed us there is a way to endure and finish the race strong. You are looking at things from a very selfish standpoint. I can ask did your God loving grandmother actually suffer or was she enduring the finality of her race? What seems like suffering for one person may in fact be a feat of strength for another.
Yes God killed off many different people groups in the Bible, but every time He did it because that people group were either tempting the chosen people away from Him, or the people group was causing a rift in the chosen people. The good news of the Bible is we are all the chosen people. We all have temptations that try to take our eyes away from God. And he is there, fighting on our behalf to destroy temptations and evil. I wish everyone could see that, but some do not have eyes to see it.
Using emotions to prove God doesn't exist is kind of illogical, If there is no God, then there is only nature. Yet, nature doesn't suffer. Nature doesn't consider anything good or evil. Nature is just nature. IF God doesn't exist, how is it that you consider anything suffering or evil? What is the standard by which you compare anything to make those claims. Please explain.