Q, what do you live and breathe for? Did the tetons get your attention in that way? What were the circumstances of your visit there, and was that “worth it” to you?
The first question is a tough one. Taking aside my daughter, with the life I have lived thus far, if I spent the next forty years doing a bit of work, reading, wandering around my farm and shooting at things, I think I would be very happy. The only reason I haven't already started doing that is my daughter. I plan to get her started in the world, give her the house in the suburbs, hopefully see some grandchildren, and then die with a bit of money in my checking account, some books, some rifles, and a farm. But... I just don't know what is in store for me.
And I want to live a life with no regrets. When I was younger, I thought I wanted to join the Marines. When I began to take steps to make it happen, my family was horrified. I initially let family dissuade me from joining the service, but eventually I realized I just wouldn't be happy if I didn't do it. Now, with that in the rearview mirror, I sort of agree with Mark Twain, who wrote, "I'm glad I did, partly because it was worth it, but mostly because I'll never have to do it again." I always assumed that Twain was implying that whatever
it was, it was awful, but I don't necessarily think that's the case. It may just be that having done something, it is not necessary to do it again. Which takes me right into the second question.
The Tetons were beautiful and the wildlife was spectacular. It was a good trip. I went with my ex-fiancée a couple of weeks before I started my workup for an OEF deployment. It was absolutely worth it from the point of view of a visit. But, without denigrating them in any way, I didn't get any more of a thrill from them than I do from the Blue Ridge mountains. I don't feel an urge to go back to see them again. Unlike many people in this thread, the Rockies are not home to me. I honestly feel a greater urge to go visit Twentynine Palms, California, where I spent almost four years as a combat instructor, than I do to go back to the Tetons (or Yosemite, another beautiful place I visited while I lived out west). And that place objectively sucks, but it has a draw to it -- to me -- that a lot of nicer places just don't.
At one point on that trip, we were hiking a trail and came upon a yearling moose. She was maybe ten yards away. Quite an impressive animal, but I didn't get the sense that I would want to hunt her. I also didn't get that feeling from watching the herds of elk in the distance in the Tetons. And the bison were basically big cows.
Watching those animals, I didn't feel the way I do when I see whitetails. Even the ones in my backyard in the suburbs or the ones I see from the road make me want to hunt them. Hell, the feeling I get when I see a groundhog -- something I have been shooting my entire life -- is more addictive than what I felt seeing those elk.
I suspect that could change if I hunted them once. And that's part of the reason I am trying to get a sense for what it is that attracts non-local people to it.
I think it is different when you have been doing something your whole life. I totally get the locals, including people in this thread, who say "to us, that's just hunting" or for whom those mountains are home. For them I can understand the itch that has to be scratched. I missed a couple of hunting seasons during my military career and each time it pained me. I never admitted it to my ex-fiancée or my ex-wife, but I missed deer hunting in November 2010 and November 2018 more than I missed them. But I also miss the feeling of being in Afghanistan, surrounded by comrades, with a naive optimism and belief in our mission that I no longer feel, more than I miss a lot of other, objectively better, things. I've done hard things that sucked, but which still have a strange and fascinating hold on me.
As someone else said above, part of me may be looking for reasons not to do it. Another person said it seems like I have an answer for everything and might not be satisfied with anything. While that may seem to be the case, the reality is that none of my answers are final. I am likely to read over this thread many times. Because, as others have said -- and they are absolutely correct -- that ultimately it is something I have to decide for myself. I appreciate everyone's thoughts so far.