Very interesting question, and one I know that I contemplated at 2 very certain points over the time of growing the business. Men are builders, growers by nature. When we get into a business situation, it takes real maturity and self examination to set and stick to a high water mark before getting too deep into the thick of it when it comes to building a business. So when considering a small or big business, most men will think a bigger business is better unless a high level of maturity exists to reign in growth for higher priorities. (family, life balance, etc)
As for humble, we always tried to stay that way, but small wasn't part of the recipe, until we were big and then small started to seem more simple and satisfying in a lot of ways. Grass is greener dreaming perhaps?
It kind of comes back to the "why grow" which I spoke about in the podcast. Once I replaced my prior income with building CF/BO, I didn't really reset my "why" and found myself engulfed in the grind of growth. By that time, an offramp to small and humble would have seemed like "giving up" vs something better. Kinda sad actually. I hope that makes sense.
I recall a time when I was thinking about being small again, as the growth started to feel like it was running faster than I was able to or wanted to keep up with. This was somewhere around 2018. My original Co-Founder and I had been growing Camofire/BlackOvis as fast as we could, fighting and grinding, but there came a point for me around 2018 when I had the real thought of "when is enough, enough?" Mind you we were growing Crispi at that point in time as well, 2 years into that adventure. This thought of "when is enough, enough" was not only as it pertained to my own business exploits, but introspectively about general life pursuits of "more is better" and also on a broader society level as I looked around. Even if I wanted to slow down, I wasn't courageous enough to confront my business partner because he was very much of the growth at all costs mindset. I suppose I just shrugged and strapped in for the ride.
Once Private Equity is part of any business equation, small and humble is not any part of any equation, and it is growth at all costs.
After the bankruptcy, I had a friend suggest that I buy CF/BO out of bankruptcy and re-start it but with a small team, smaller goals, and enjoy the ride vs trying to conquer the world. I have to admit, that idea of CF/BO as a small and humble operation has its appeal, but if CF/BO does rise from the ashes, I doubt I have the stomach to be a part of it. Unlike Lot's wife, I don't think I will be looking back longingly for what is behind me.
Sorry for the book. You got me into some deep thought on the topic.