Well, I wasn't expecting this one to resurface, but here it is.
Alot of guys with some inspiring experiences and solid input...and some weird shit about college art chicks to boot...good reads.
I wish I had something I could home in on and just know "yep...thats it...thats my goal, thats what I want to do" like some of you have...Ive not found that yet, but Ive not given up either.
I suppose I should have updated, but not much positive progress to report.
Lately Ive been in maintain/survive mode and havent accomplished much other than fighting lumbar spine issues that suddenly started affecting my legs/feet pretty bad a few months ago and really been kicking my ass.
Not doing much other than desk duty at the daily grind, PT, doctors visits and trying to get an injection set up soon in hopes to get it more manageable before my moose hunt in September...which has been one of few things keeping me going and somewhat motivated. That hunt, should my back not slide further down hill before hand, will soon be followed by l4-l5 decompression surgery and possibly some work at l5-s1 before the years end. Im still working things out with the surgeon but 2 separate opinions point towards how soon and not if I'll need to go under the knife.
Ive had back pain for over a decade, but some congenital issues accompanied by 25 years of physical labor finally caught up with me it seems. This may force my hand to find a different route to finishing out my working years though Im really not sure where its all gonna lead just yet.
Not real worried about to far in the future presently to be honest. The last few months of my own and immediate family health issues, vacations, kids sports/activities and just trying to keep up with life in general while living in pretty constant pain has pretty well dimmed any glimmer of clarity I was searching for and Ive made peace with that for the time being.
I dont wanna sound like a downer. Im ok, life is not bad by any means and Im fortunate enough to have alot of support on the home front come what may.
I just dont have the bandwidth to process much more than the day to day right now.
The fresh start success stories are always good to read, keep them coming for anyone who might find some motivation and reassurance in them.
I'll update if I ever manage to stop falling apart long enough to get my shit together
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